Must return those overdue books

.




Woops.

Hell Week 3 of 3

At least, hopefully.

I must stop staring

at my Limewire window as the software downloads mp3s.

The songs will arrive. No need to salivate in anticipation.

On the other note, I have downloaded 30 Eraserheads songs in the space of an hour.

Eraserheads, the Filipino version of the almighty Siam Shade. Worshippable folks, they are.

YM Avatar

I rarely give-in to demands. But since there's no demand, I'm giving-in.

I know it isn't the most impressive thing in the world, but hey, that was just my fourth formal attempt on shading.

I'm doing research

I was done with almost all except citations, works cited and conclusion. And boy, do I come up with the most grandiose headings.

1. the absolutist philosophical approach
2. The Relativity of the application of the Absolutist Philosophical Approach
3. The default truth

Well, that's it. The others have fallen upon the pit of mundanity.

It's scary, actually

I had been working on my research paper, and I have reached the part that discusses the demerits of Evolution. It's eye-widening that I discuss the issues of DNA complexity and C-14 dating entirely out of memory.

And then I find the materials (thus far) in In Search of Schrodinger's Cat as too basic.


o_o

Fuck Schrodinger's cat

Fuck fuck fuck fuck.

What is left of the world? WHAT?

The Dark Sucker Theory

For years, it has been believed that electric bulbs emit light, but recent information has proved otherwise. Electric bulbs don't emit light; they suck dark. Thus, we call these bulbs Dark Suckers. The Dark Sucker Theory and the existence of dark suckers prove that dark has mass and is heavier than light.

First, the basis of the Dark Sucker Theory is that electric bulbs suck dark. For example, take the Dark Sucker in the room you are in. There is much less dark right next to it than there is elsewhere. The larger the Dark Sucker, the greater its capacity to suck dark. Dark Suckers in the parking lot have a much greater capacity to suck dark than the ones in this room. So with all things, Dark Suckers don't last forever. Once they are full of dark, they can no longer suck. This is proven by the dark spot on a full Dark Sucker.

A candle is a primitive Dark Sucker. A new candle has a white wick. You can see that after the first use, the wick turns black, representing all the dark that has been sucked into it. If you put a pencil next to the wick of an operating candle, it will turn black. This is because it got in the way of the dark flowing into the candle. One of the disadvantages of these primitive Dark Suckers is their limited range. There are also portable Dark Suckers. In these, the bulbs can't handle all the dark by themselves and must be aided by a Dark Storage Unit. When the Dark Storage Unit is full, it must be either emptied or replaced before the portable Dark Sucker can operate again. Dark has mass. When dark goes into a Dark Sucker, friction from the mass generates heat. Thus, it is not wise to touch an operating Dark Sucker. Candles present a special problem as the mass must travel into a solid wick instead of through clear glass. This generates a great amount of heat and therefore it's not wise to touch an operating candle.

Also, dark is heavier than light. If you were to swim just below the surface of the lake, you would see a lot of light. If you were to slowly swim deeper and deeper, you would notice it getting darker and darker. When you get really deep, you would be in total darkness. This is because the heavier dark sinks to the bottom of the lake and the lighter light floats at the top. The is why it is called light.

Finally, we must prove that dark is faster than light. If you were to stand in a lit room in front of a closed, dark closet, and slowly opened the closet door, you would see the light slowly enter the closet. But since dark is so fast, you would not be able to see the dark leave the closet.

Next time you see an electric bulb, remember that it is a Dark Sucker. (Source)


Mood: amused

Wanted: Debate Trainer

Dear Potential-trainer,

I formally realized today that I DO want get into ADS Varsity. Even if I cringe at political and economic motions, I still want to debate, for the heck of debating.

However, I can't. I'm so fucking inexperienced that I curse my alma mater day-in and day-out.

My problems are as follows:
1. I have trouble creating deputy arguments.
2. Much more creating extensions.
3. Whenever I catch an error, all I can say in my mind is, "That's so ridiculously wrong. I can't explain why, but it is."

I have no problems whatsoever in spotting logical flaws. I may even pounce on you when discussing freedom.

If you're up to it, just leave a message. In return for the training, I am going to share to you the wonders of the Quantum World, superstrings, and the greatness of Kurt Gödel.

Cheers,
Daphne

What's the point?

Samar complains that I'm too vague. Friggin' hypocrite. I do not complain when I read any of his poems, or any poem for that matter, do I?.

Oh, yeah. I do.

Ah...

It seems like I independently discovered the fundamentals of poststructuralist philosophy. It's just that I've always called it the principles of relativity (not to be mistaken with Einstein's theories).

I stopped reading, though. I'd rather discover the rest myself.


(On another note: long live Kurt Gödel, even if he died of the most ridiculous reason.)

I feel like I'm Sophie,

...and that I must save Howl.

The same Howl who said, "What's the point of living if I'm not beautiful?"


...

My golly,

This blog is horrible.





Oh, well.



On the side note, I am... enlightened. By something.

Tsk, tsk.

Creative Writing I

We were doing this Creative Writing session as prep for the upcoming Reflection paper. (No, Research isn't done yet.) We were asked by Elmo-the-for-some-reason-Celadon-survey's-hottest-male-prof* to think of an animal that best describes us, and then we were to write a narrative imagining how we, as that animal, spent an entire day. Well, supposedly. I however, ended up yawning and writing randomly; instead of a narrative I made it more like a reflective one (which actually is the point of a reflection paper).

Later, he made us go to our "trust" partners (even he admits it's corny) and share what we wrote. I read Eli's and vice-versa. Suddenly Eli asked, "Ikaw ba to?"

I blinked. Well, not really. Of course to some extent there's a connection but... hmmm...

She attempted to interpret what I wrote, and she got things right. I mean, my golly, how'd she do that? Was that piece that revealing?

She said:

1. I hate routine
2. I hate restrictions
3. I want to do a lot of things, but I don't want to accomplish it alphabetically or what have you
4. I'm a deep thinker (cheers, Plato)

...

MBTI doesn't even come close.

o_o


*Bobby Benedicto wins by a mile, ****ers.

Hybrid Rainbows...

eternally remains the perfect song.

It's weird, you know

Actually studying, I mean.

Top 3 most ridiculous anime titles EVER

3. Fooly Cooly

(It's supposed to be Furi Kuri. I know those Japanese folks could not pronounce L, but come on people...)




2. Plastic Little

(Don't even ask me.)





and the most ridiculous title ever, and I mean EVER:




Boku wa Sexual Harassment





o_o

Surely,

出し切れない実力は,　
誰のせい？

I can't do it.

I really can't.

Quoting ゆずれない願い:

スタートラインに立つたびに　怯えていた






I'm such a coward.

What should I do?

What should I do? What should I do? What? What? What?


>.<



Oh no.


[paranoid]

The days are getting crazier

And everyone agrees.


[Ma19LT, Ma19 midterms, Fil Critical Paper, RESEARCH and of course, *toot*]

Where does Samar get all these?

Tarrobian

Taburrian

Tabburian

Oh!



Turabian.

On reading the draft of Fil12 task 2

*cringes*

And I thought Lacson lost?

Backward.

If they approve this, I'll be the first one at EDSA.

They should wait until I turn 40, at the very least.

ゆずれない願い

止まらない未来を目指して　ゆずれない願いを抱きしめて

海の色が紅く染まってゆく　無重力状態
このまま風にさわれたい

いつも跳べないハードルを
負けない気持ちで　クリアしてきたけど
出し切れない実力は　誰のせい？

止まらない未来を目指して　ゆずれない願いを抱きしめて
色褪せない心の地図　光にかざそう

どれだけ泣けば　朝に出逢えるの
孤独な夜　初めて限界を感じた日
きっと恋に落ちるのは
まばたきみたいな　一瞬の情熱だけど
愛に続く坂道で　強さ覚えたい

止まらない未来を夢見て
口を閉ざし　瞳を光らせてきたけれど
もっと大きな　優しさが見えた

跳べないハードルを
負けない気持ちで　クリアしてきたけど
スタートラインに立つたびに　怯えていた

止まらない未来を描いて　腕を伸ばし心を開いて

止まらない未来を目指して　ゆずれない願いを抱きしめて
色褪せない心の地図　光にかざそう

*toot*, oh *toot*

Why?

:(

BS Physics and Philosophy.

Top-seeded team in the WUDC.

Top 2 speakers in WUDC.

PRESTIGIOUS.

Why?

:(

Whisper "for Apollo", and I'll forgive you.

*sigh*

Regrets, regrets and thousands of I-could-haves. Same banana, yeah, but shut up.

The aftermath: all is lost

I no longer see the point of Philosophy. I could no longer identify the importance of defending the relativity of practically everything, when the idea that I could've said the same those same words, did those same things and thought those same concepts before --- and in fact, over and over again, plagues me.

Now, tell me you know ANYTHING, and I'll laugh at your face.

Gödel* ruined me.

Whatever I had believed, I have already forgotten.



* Rucker, actually.

*gasp*

I lost my Anvil-Research book. Not that it matters. HOWEVER, I also lost my...



>.<


Ellie, just make me another one. I'll pay you this time.


>.<

プラチナ

I'm a dreamer　ひそむパワー

私の世界
夢と恋と不安で出来てる
でも想像もしないもの　隠れてるはず

空に向かう木々のようにあなたを
まっすぐ見つめてる

※みつけたいなあ　かなえたいなあ
　信じるそれだけで
　越えられないものはない
　歌うように奇蹟のように
　「思い」が全てを変えてゆくよ
　きっと　きっと　驚くくらい

I'm a dreamer　ひそむパワー

まだ見ぬ世界
そこで何が待っていても
もしも理想とちがっても　恐れはしない

鳥たちは風にのり旅をしてゆく
今日から明日へと

伝えたいなあ　さけびたいなあ
この世に一つだけの存在である私
祈るように星のように
ちいさな光だけど何時(いつか)かは
もっと　もっと　つよくなりたい

限界のない可能性がここにある　この手に
It's gonna be your world

※ Repeat

Let me take this opportunity to curse my Physics prof

*censored*

Writing the research outline

I swear I'm trying my best not to sound like Heidegger, Confucius or my daily horoscope. But I just can't.


I was born vague.

I rarely regret anything.

Graduating from high school or college? What's next?

Take a gap year!

Call us for your gap year options before going off to college or before looking for a job.

I sometimes swear that I was born too early.

Damn it. I could've done something then.

:(

I should've heeded Frances' referral. I mean, goodness. I have already clicked on the link. All that was left was for me to read the content. Why the hell did I not?

Sadness.

Operation eschew 8+-hours of sleep starts...

Now.

Finally.

Yesterday, I started with my fourth Ma19 so-called notebook.

Or rather, the other day.

I REALLY should start sleeping normally.

Or, better yet, I simply shouldn't sleep. My cheeks do not get any thinner.

Bloody blieu, that pldt

100+ redial attempts. 2 hours.

I was about to give-up. I tried again.

And it worked. As if my PC has its mind of its own by deliberately not connecting to the internet to stop me from idling, and to allow me to pursue the more significant things in life like, say, combing my hair.

It sure is annoying.

Why is it so fucking easy to get into Ateneo these days?

4800 acceptees+waitlisted?

13,000 applicants?

37% admission rate?

41% yield rate?

What nut are they cracking? UP-Diliman's admission rate is 3%!

%^@*$#!

Hmmm....

I was supposed to visit the ADMU website for my research. But it says:

Warning: Too many connections in /home/newweb/html/includes/lib/db_mysql.inc on line 73
Database error: pconnect(localhost, admu_user, $Password) failed.
MySQL Error: ()
Session halted.

...

Oooooh. Right. ACET results.

An anecdote

Wednesday, ASEC MUNA "meeting".

Me: I got into Georgetown.
Jamina: *blink* You GOT into Georgetown?
Me: Yeah.
...
Jamina: You bitch!

Good day, world

Because I love randomness and hate Friendster's stupid blog-update alert (and because I simply couldn't get around creating a Wordpress-ran and philhosting.net-hosted blog), I then decided to create a VERY temporary blog to post whatever I want. It'll be truly random, sometimes even nonsense, that I wouldn't even bother spell-checking.

I call it solipsist-the, because Blogger claims that the other urls I've tried are not available. But then, what else do you expect from the website that created a VERY discriminating Google Earth?

So. That is all.